this is a continuation from this entry – It’s important that you do things because you like or better yet LOVE doing it and not to expect others to feel the same way about it

I cant help myself.. i juust thought I just wanted to jot down somemore of my nothings after reading Farah Lildreamz entry – We are living in a super fast lane… {Farah, all the best babe..! i hope ur dream job is coming ur way soon..!}

I always believe everyone all have our set of dreams, thats the beautiful part of life. everyone has its own uniqueness, in characteristics, ability, capabilities, needs n wantings. what our goals are.. how we want to pursue it.. is another thing. but then again when all this comes together, it all comes back to one, wanting the best.. for our kid, family and ourself. How, when or why is all depends on our situation, family background, longitud, aptitude…& yada yada…

All moms no matter working in the office, the busy running-here-&there-with-tight-datelines type or the more relax scheduled-all-organised-kinda type, fulltime housewifes or working at home. We all want the same thing, the best for our kids n our family…

we all need to juggle our time with many things.. n giving the very best of our strength to ensure our family’s happiness and ofcos ourselves. why was i a bit down on the earlier post, becos some ppl just like to keep comparing.. saying theirs is hard having to work, my life is so much easier… i dont like to share my sad n down times with friends, thats just me.. my best n close buddy knows how I am, not that I’m proud of myself, dont want to show my weakness or faults, its just me I just dont like to share about my downtimes especially when I am at weekest point which usually doesnt last long, so thats y i dont share them, i need time to be with myself n think it out… now mostly I only let it out to Wan, my bff all are bz with their lives so when we chat i want to talk about the good things… thats who I am, since I was a kid.

SO? how do they know, when they’ve never been in my shoes?or other hand some who doesnt understand why I wanted to quit my job and do this… giving up my standings in the corporate jungle.

I used to ride the bike with One, took the lrt and then on the bus going to office even when I was heavily pregnant.. just to save more money for the kids. but who am I to compare and say I do a lot more and sacrifice more for my kids than other moms…? how do I know what challenges or day-to-day lifes they have to go thru….? Do I become less smart for wanting to work at home?

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Seriously I’m all tired with all this. let those mouths talk, or ppl who wishes for other ppls dream to go for doom. everyone is entitled with their own opinions kan… I dont want to take it to heart {dan tersentap lagi} anymore. let bygones be bygones. Thank you for those mouths becos yes, alhamdulillah I became stronger… so be it.

Cos I need to look on the bright side there’s a lot more lovely mommies out there, who have are very helpfull and how they hang in tight, during each others down time.. in this momblogosphere I’ve read a quite number of them.. really wonderful. how each n every comments gives courage n strength to others wowwed me.. sweet2 mommies they are… we all know how much we have to give.. the patience we have to endure.. mcm kt entry Azza – kenapa?, punyelah ramai mommies bg diorg nye pendpt… very very sweet laa to me. I especially like Shila Mrs Kown comment, how she always reminds herself everytime she’s down that kena bersyukur ada rezeki dpt anak, ada sesetengah org susah nak dpt {sila baca komen sebenar, ni i punye interpretation}..

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Alhamdulillah..

• A few parts of the house {walaupun rumah kecik, tp masih boleh membahagikan..) that I wanted to clean up and organize is done…
• Design jobs are coming in… and more baking and perfume order..
• Lessen my migrains..
• used up more of my time for better things, no more 2-3 hours stuck in jams
• Managed to train Mas to be much better now…

We all have our whys to every reason who chose the path and how we view success… we are all born in different families & brought up in different ways, may come for different walks of life, and have different needs. rambut mungkin sama itam kan? tp skrg itam pun leh jadi blonde, maroon, pink, brunette.. jadi apa yg nak diherankan kan?

All i know, I sgt bersyukur I chose to just jump into the wahm wagon, the very first week I already diduga with my kids having fever, vomitting and really high tempreture, had to go to the clinic a few times, and ofcos just 2-3 of daily sleep.. if I was working how would it be? more leaves to take.. will impact so badly on my report. I’m the type that cannot leave my kids sight when they’re sick, i just cant help myself or push myself to go work. I have this problem ever since Nadhrah, altho I know she’s in good care with my mom pun I just cannot put the responsibilities on my moms shoulders.. I simply dont have an answer. thats who I am.

Then Monday, to help my mom settle with all the things related Accident oh accident….. and others days lagi to help out my mom with her biz. Yes, I have run out a few hours out of office sometime becos of this, but u know somethings cannot be rushed and bad record on my work ethics right? but yes, i have numerous times did it to help out my mom.. ofcos I’ve always told her its no problem, my boss understands.. but reality is its the other way round. And pls dont ask me why, cos I’m just the type who cannot say no… afterall she have done for me since I was a baby until now, how can i say no…

but it all draws down to one… we all want the best for our family.. A happy family makes a good home kan?agree, no?

I have planned some others things that I need to do and achieve.

Hope for the best.. pls wish me luck…

I tgk blk youtube ni kat entry Apash – Untuk tauladan semua – sedey sgt..!

sebak n mengalir gak air mata..