ofcos as a human, we all have gone thru it.. mebbe not for long.. just a minute or two.. an hour or two.. a day or two… depending on how fast you pickup the pieces kan??

mine happened last thursday n yesterday, on work that.. as my status fb writes yesterday… “sheeeshh, just hate it when ur ability is being questioned bcos u’re preggy n gonna have 3 kids.. no matter how hard u try.. is this a sign that I’m just not meant to work in office anymore??”

ofcos I typed that when I was pissed, I just needed somewhere to jot down something… who wont kan?? the amount of hardwork I’ve put in, the latenights, the fast turnarounds but all that was brought up was on my pregnancy and the few mistakes I did, my strenghths?? nadaaa… hmmphs. but thanks to friends yg sgt supportive, ada yg buzz me terus enquiring n comforting.. as well as just now Liza commented on my status also mentioning, she’s gonna work from home soon…

as some of you might know that I was working from home doing freelance for 2 months before starting back working here, this opportunity came knocking on my door when I least expected it as I didnt apply for any job during the time.. as I mentioned in my entry 3 months back,  Rezeki. so after being offered, deep-thinking I took on the offer.

after hours of talking to One last night and much thinking over the night. Yeaa, i admit its not much of a big deal anyways, its just an extending of probation period and doesnt make much difference pun. Doesnt effect me that bad. Comfirm pun boleh kena buang bile2 kan. Rezeki tu ditangan Allah SWT kan, jadi all I have to do is terima dugaan ni n just do my work.. and improve myself where I can as required by them.

Kena bersyukur dgn apa yg kite ada, & kelebihan yg Allah SWT dah berikan. Takleh nak melatah dgn hal2 kecik kan..

Hence my status today berbunyi… “Live for the moments that bring butterflies to your stomach and smiles to your face.” which I got from Ili last week I think… thanks dear, love the quote, brightens up my day.

am taking it positively, different company, different bosses might have different expectations. Then if in the end of the day, if its not my rezeki and not meant to be.. than its just not.

I just need to be prepared with the circumstancess and options..

so… I’m ready… bring it on!

(ceh berlagakk.. hampeh.. kang belum apa2 lg dah nangis.. kuikuikui.. farah farah)

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ni nak share a few pics during Phuket offsite meeting hari tu…
boleh spot tak me on the strecther going into the ambulance??? hehehhe… citenye?? leh baca entry ni Pening-pening lalat..

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ok nak mkn… selamat berlunchy munchy..
ps: pics are credit to Naz… thanks dude..!

Saya adalah sedikit penat & lapar pada ketika ini, tgh tunggu collegue siapkan keje dia sikit nak turun breakfast, as usual we are the early ones.. Smlm stay up lmbt jugak buat keje-keje yg dtg last minute & sgt tight deadline.. Now direquest changes lg, tu lah padahnye bekerja dgn bosses diluar negara yg xsama working hours dgn kite.. dan again kali ni rushing job dari US yg 12 jam dibelakang kite.. jd pagi dia tgh mlm kite… haish..

ok ok.. lets not go into that..

saya harus menceriakan pagi saya jadi hal tu tolak tepi jap..

smlm upload gmbr raya family kan? dan selalu gmbr n cerita semua byk psl cik kenits.

Hari ni ni nak selit pulak psl dear hubster… en khairol aka one.. hari tu dia tunjuk ngan saya gmbr open house raya department diorg – Operations team. Best tgk. kitorg nye ofis mkn kecil-kecillan je maklumlah melayu brp kerat je.

Ofcos gmbrnye sgt byk, 100++ tp saya save yg relevant dgn saya je dan ofcos la kan yg relevant tu adalah yg ada gmbr one kan.

tq en photographer utk gambar2..

 JOM LAYAN…..  

ini dia en khairol.. hahha. mcm laa korang xtau kan.

kemas juge cubicle dia.. clap clap. bangga jap.

the green…. i likee!

hey… curi makankah??

eh eh.. berposing plak dia… kihkihkih..

ok… sudah sudah posing… masuk buat keje.. eh ke sambung mkn? tee-hee..

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ok dearies.. masa utk start kerja!

HAPPY THURSDAY! happy working.

how i wish there was more days of weekends…

last week, was pretty packed with meetings n clearing out work before flying to Phuket on a off-site meeting trip, all in all I would say I didnt had much of a nice trip there, although the scenery was beatiful and very peaceful, my room was facing the beach and in the room I can at the balcony, while surfing.. which I was only was able to do once which was the only 2 hours I had for a real resting n relaxing time. Others was packed with itiniaties.. meetings n bla bla.

we went there on Thursday, had to wake up really early 3.30am as flight was 730. had to be there 2 hours earlier prior to check in. arrived there and there was lunch before we were able to check in our bags into our room at 2. The lunch wass not good, didnt like it at all.. Then 3 we had meeting until around 6. finished with the meeting, we need to head back n get ourselves ready to go for a dinner in the city, which was 30 minutes ride so we all had to be down at the lobby by 7, but……

walking down from the meeting room I had an accident, I slipped down the stairs.

But syukur sgt I was able to balance myself not to fell backwards which I presume will be worst, so there i go diving down the stairs, 3-4 steps. mcm superman pulak, sampai step yg terakhir I manage to tahan dgn tangan so it wont hit my face. I really put  a lot pressure on my leg so that it can somehow will help not to hit my tummy but at the last step it did, but not so hard, but this was my first time falling thru all my experience in pregnancy so I was really worried when it did hit. tears when down my cheek as I try to struggle to bring myself up. 

my collegues all were very nice n helpful, they were all gathering beside me and a few carried me back and hug me from the back to comfort me from the back (lady ofcos).. hotel ppl were also being informed an Thai’s being very good in this, had a wheel chair brought for me and called a doctor right away.. pushed me back to the room to wait for the doctor. and when the doctor came he said it was best to checked in the hosp…. and my god there I was being pushed into an ambulance, never expected this.. In the ambulance I was holding my tummy and saying to my baby, sayang pls be strong for mama, pls.. oh i dont want to go on longer on the details, all in all, I am just fine just bruises here and there on my leg, baby is well and actively moving… I was so relieved. chose not to call One because I didnt want him to be worried sick…

the next day, Friday, during breakfast everybody was like greeting me n asking me hows everything… very very concern n sweet of them all. I reallly am glad to have such nice collegues, and my special thanks goes to Juliana n Lidya, who did their very best to help n comfort me. Juliana actually was there all thru the time from the moment I fell, by my side in the ambulance and hospital until I get back to the room at 1130 at night after settling everything in the hospital. i am really touched~

then there was meeting until about 2, then lunch.. then we had some 2 hours of relaxing time before the 5.30 journey plan to FantaSea, and then on the way there was another bad experience episode… car sick.. the road was windy and bumpy and the driving fast didnt help much.. which left me feeling sick all the way forth and back, vomitted when I arrived there and arrived back, but luckily both time I was able to wait until found the toilet not to have given others bad experience as well. I had my bath that nite and straight head to sleep. was just plain tired & drained.

and then Saturday was the day to go back…. we had to be at the lobby by 1015am, so I woke up just in time to pack, get ready and go for the last bfast there, chit chatting with the others. not many went back on saturday, the trip was supposed to be until sunday, saturday till sunday is free & easy time no more meetings so they planned island hopping, shopping n yada2..

i opt to go back early.. just so me. cant be apart from my family for long. i was already really homesick then. so nopp other than getting to know my collegues better, getting  better understanding of work structure and resolve some work issues and beatiful scenery, i didnt had a great trip at all… i somehow felt it, I had a bad feeling the nite before as well as the morning before departure.. luckily nothing worse than i can cope. alhamdulillah, syukur.

when the airplane touched down in KL, oh man the feeling of happiness n relieve is beyond explanation… and when i walked out of the airport and the moment I saw my 2 lil darlings, all my body aching stopped (for a while that is)…

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nnti ill share pics of my trip as well updates yg lain yg dah tertunggak yea, n weekends activity…

HAPPY MONDAY guyss…!

*current wall paper for my desktop..*

huhu. nak letak gmbr tp xtau nak letak gmbr apa so layan je la k…

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ps: HAPPPY BIRTHHHHHHHHDAYYY to dearest sister IMAN… sweet 16. luv ya!

ps2: oh and thankss to my dearest darling hubs nak hntr n ambik.. dh lerr kena hntr awal2 pg. love u syg!! yg lain ramai naik cab je. I’m so lucky to have u. muahs.

ps3: pening-pening lalat sbb ada beberapa benda yg berlegar2 di kepala, siapa yg berfriends dgn saya di FB tau kot.. huhu..

ramai yg cube teka.. ada yg text sms, email, chat n send fb msgs…

thanks pd semua yg concern.. it does feel good ada org yg ambik berat.. again thank u!

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ok, rezeki yg dimaksudkan adalah

1. Anak – yuppp, dah comfirm pregnant 8 week ++..

2. Job – kerja baru..

dua2 rezeki dtg tanpa diminta atau diplan..

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both came knocking when i least expected…

but hence not plannning n what not, am still accepting both with an open heart n mind..

ofcos at first I was pretty worried, cos some jobs doesnt want preggy mother n also if I continue having gastric and heartburn (sickness/alah) its gonna be pretty tough working..

but after much thinking and One’s calmness with the situation, it assure me everything will be fine.. worst case scenario if on comfirmation day, they dont want me because I’m pregnant so be it.. I would just let it go.. altho I think I have so much room to grow here. but anak is just everything.

oh, juge tumpang tersentap baca komen kat entry Munirah walaupun komen tu bukan utk aku but rasa mcm situasi aku pun lebih kurang sama tanpa dirancang.. n about her having triplets? who can plan how many kids we get? apa pun aku rasa betul susah bile time ada ramai anak kecik, tp mcm my parents + mil kata “takpe masih muda n larat nak jaga. Janji bile dh tua, retire dh boleh sitback n relax takyah pikir nak hntr anak skolah la apa laa”. suke baca entry Hidd – Jangan Cakap Lebih ni.. boleh laa ditujukan pd komenter Munirah tu, easier said than done k. rezeki Allah SWT takkan nak tolak? bodoh la kan tolak rezeki yg dtg? dugaan ke apa ke semuanye ada hikmah disebaliknye..

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I actually applied for this vacancy last year during confinement with Aqilah….

and suddenly was called again a month back asking whether am I still interested in the job, and I actually had a long pause so I was asked to think about it. So with One’s advice I just tried my luck in sending my updated cv n other documents requested.. and then two weeks back everything came on so quickly, a few emails sent back n forth, interview from phone with hr and interview-meeting with my now boss, after close to 2 hours of interview she offered me the job. I said I need to think about it first and discuss with husband.

driving back home from the interview, tears actually drop down my cheeks.. happy i guess. atlast some appreciation of my works after so long. but then I was just clueless.. what now?? my dream of being a working at home mom?

then that afternoon I did a lot of thinking while sitting down with my 2 princess.. Nadhrah have so many times said she wants to go to her old taska, play with friends.. pegi skolah.. (her interpretation of pegi skolah is bawak beg dgn buku n stationaries, duduk kat meja tulis & bersama kawan2. )

Aqilah is already 1, she also wants to play with friends n mix around. she likes outdoor activities as well.

N now with coming of the 3rd.. we definately need more money to save for the kids.. education n such.. everything is getting more expensive.. mind you, sending the kids to kindy also need thousand of ringgit.

And when One came back, we discussed somemore and it all became clear to me. I would accept the offer, after all it seems like its a much much greener pasture n the sum offered was also Alhamdulillah…

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I’m in indeed very thankful for both…

though I have different plans ealier.. but i believe that the path that Allah SWT god almighty lay out for us is far far better..

beautifully planned.. kite insan kerdil hanya nampak jln yg singkat..

and much thinking, it is indeed after all my really initial plan… which was to quit my job when my kids starts primary school.. not now.. it might be too early for us. the sudden change of mind in May was becos I can no longer take it there, so so many things that I just couldnt take n inhale anymore.

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so here I am back at an office desk… 8 week++ preggy, can still cover at the moment

(sbb gemok jd org tak heran sgt kenapa buncit.. hehe).

this 2 days sickness (gastrik + heartburn) showing good signs of wearing off.. really do hope it will be over.

Pregnancy hormones and sickness… 

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One has been such a great partner enduring both and help me with so many things during I was pregnant with both Nadhrah and Aqilah, and yess he has started doing the same for a months plus plus now.. I had days of bad stomach ache that I took many naps here n there just to sleep-kill off the pain.. very understanding and helpful hubby indeed, therefore mmg sgt setuju sgt dgn entry Farah.

my latest status updated last thursday in fb still remains, which reads -

“is just thrilled..! Alhamdulillah, syukur padamu yaAllah for the shinny days… Looking forward to the shinier days ahead.. thx hubster @Wan for always being by my side n supporting me thru n thru.. angel of mine, ay heart u”

i especially like this bcos of the date… Nadhrah’s bday.

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ofcos I’m hoping for warm wishes.. no bitter one pls. thank u!

have a nice day lovelies..!

I now wake up at 430, start working early, so that I can get more done.. but today, haissh, Have you ever have days that u just go blank? you know when idea fails to do its duty to come to work..

I’m having one of the days.. sighs…

hence my fb status:

“Morning ppl…
Woke up this morning with tonnes of ideas to merepek for salt contest, but need to get work done first..
Dari td idea flow tak mari.. WHY WHY WHY? hmmph.. xpuas ati dgn design sendiri.. kak Siti Nurishah Hsn pls bare with me yea. Idea pls pls pls, I need you!”

830am: Nadhrah sibok nak attention sgt hr ni, pg pg nak mama gak bwk pi padang.. layankan jer la…

1000am: balik dari padang, sempat check pc jap, Kak Siti jwb

Siti Nurishah Hsn

baikkan?? terus rs guilty.. tapi Nadhrah sgt tidak membantu, sgt hyper {mmg dia aktif, tp hari terlebih..} gelak sini sana.. ok ni mesti kes takdpt candu laa ni.. semenjak weening ni, camtu laa dia.

Sebelum gi padang, dah makan honeystar, tp blk tu kata lapaa lg, jadi buatkanlah sup mushroom + sayur utk dia.. & suap dia habis satu mangkuk dgn sup n nasi, Aqilah pun sibok nak sikit. satu botol ribena {bukan botol susu, botol tumbler}..

penat + kenyang = tido? oh tidak utk Nadhrah, energy level belum 100% utilise…

sambung buat keje…

1:20pm: Nadrah menari pusing2 sambil pegang sikat depan tv tgk dvd “a bug’s world”.. Aqilah pun klua, td main di bilik, terus Nadhrah sibok nk sikat rambut Aqilah… jap, Aqilah dh menjerit.

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am Back..

1:55pm: Nadhrah menari sambil melompat2 depan tv.. Aqilah main gigit2 lego..

my my.. Nadhrah tak mengantuk tp aku yg ngantuk. skrg dh sampai waktu kemuncak, ngantuk..!

rasa mcm bgn dr 430 mcm sia-sia.. tak puas ati dgn design sendiri.. tak menarik..!

Internet dah start slow… Plak tgh puasa marathon ni bertambah2 ngantuk la kan, puasa tahun lepas adalah masa tgh berpantang, jdnye byk gile laa hari yg nak kena ganti…

hopefully after restkan kepala n bdn kejap ni idea akan dtg… Idea, pls pls pls, i need you… I need you to my very core.. pls grow back! dtg dlm mimpi, pun ok gakss..

ok.. sebelum saya zzZZZZZzzZZz off utk mendptkan idea..

nak share some pics of bday party yg kitorg pegi…

On the way to Munirah Triplets-plus-One party ~ Nadhrah sgt excited dah ni..! As usual party diorg mmg fab lah, very well-planned and knowing Munirah yg sgt creative n rajin..

I didnt snap any pics there, as I was really tired, just arrived from Ipoh, send Aqilah at my moms as she was sleeping, went to buy the present and head to Munirahs place.

here’s 2 links of entry with tonnes of pics {yg i ingat}, PhatMummy and YayaFamily.

oh, and guess what, soon itll be triplets plus more..!

CONGRATS MUNIRAH…!

once again thanks for inviting us to the cool party of yours..

ni pulak Bday party Wafiq anak bujang si Elyn... fullhouse u, ramai betul..

pic dari Elyn, xsempat nk snap gmbr gak, sygnye rs tak dpt ambik gmbr si kenits saya berseronok..!

kelam kabut ngan dua kenit kejap nak klua kejap nak masuk.. nak ini & itu.. yupp, Aqilah pun sibok kulu-kilir tau..

Nasi Lemak adalah sedap..! kfc ofcos laa kat idaman Nadhrah selalu, abis satu ayam dia mkn, vitagen tak ingat brp dia ambik… heeee, hrp maap elynn.! anak dara sy ni mmg tak segan orgnye.

anyways thanks elyn jemput kami sekeluarga..! Nadhrah kata best!

skrg Nadhrah suruh teman baca buku pulak.. dapatkah tidor ni? mmm… wish me luck!

rumah sudah mcm kapal pecah…

hari ketiga terakhir bulan.

masa utk?

{klue: ♥ angan, ♣ kenyataan}

mengorganizekan organizer. memenuhkan weekly planner/monthly planner dgn keje dan rancang aktiviti.
♥ ada 48jam sehari, dpt ambik sebyk mana keje/order yg boleh.. puaskan hati customer/kwn2 n sendiri.. dpt split bdn menjadi 2, boleh spend time duduk ngan anak n satu lg buat keje.. hahaha..

♣ tangan 2, badan satu… jadinye harus tau ukur kemampuan sendiri n organize dua2 dgn betul, agar seimbang.

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dapat gaji.

♥ shopppppingg..! baju sendiri n anak, tudung, brg rumah, brg dapur, lagi bungaan utk garden… PC baru..!

♣ bil dan hutang sedang beratur utk meminta bayaran. Gaji pula adalah tidak tetap dan masih lagi newbie WAHM, haruslah chill dulu masa yg lebih stabil nanti..

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tidak sedih. sedang senyum macam kerang busuk. gelihati ngan diri sendiri.

ok dah update organizer..

pastu rehat jap termenung ke sana sini… pastu baring jap atas katil sambil men’sketch’kan idea utk kerja2 design, conteng-conteng mcmmana angan2 utk mendecorate lagi rumah…

hihihhi..

ok, maha angan2 dah timbul. “Duit, silalah jatuh dari langit.. plss!”

ok. stop. sebelum korang lari dan pikir aku gile.

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korang nampak tak kat box atas ada benda yg dh berubah… bwh iklan nuffnang.

YEAY!! akhirnye thumbnail utk entries pilihan dan dimasukkan dgn jayanya. thanks to Aini sugarush for all the customization on the scripting. weekend lepas Aini dah menghidup thumbnail dgn coding2. aku campurkan projek-projek yg kitorang{mak aku & aku} dah buat. dan ofcos masih buat. design. baking. perfume. dan juga art. bile click thumbnail tu akan masuk entry yg berkenaan.

erm… aku plan nak buat design utk album si comel.

perasan x kat thumbnail tu?

barisan bwh, yg ke lima dari kiri, ada gmbr thumbnail nadhrah & friends dlm scrapbook.

{ korang terpikir: ye… nampak.. so apa plannye? }

.korang bg gambar2 si comel korang. aku designkan layout album ikut design yg korang nak. & printkan ke album. tapi tak sempat survey betul2 lagi harga album dan printing. insyaAllah akan buat asap!

ada yg berminat??

scrapbook style design tu salah satu idea laa. utk idea2 lain….  leh tgk cth kat entry ni – Cute Lil Mary Poppins. scroll ke bwh… tapi sebelum tu silalah jamu mata dgn gambar peha Mary(Mariam) yg sgt yums yums..!!

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ps: kak siti hsn, farah tgh buat illustrate header akak. ezan, lynn & laila akan reply ur email kejap lagi. aida, shakey, butik azzahra still menunggu email korang.

erm, ada yg tertinggal ke? email: { farah.alida@gmail.com }

thank u! *hugs*

I’m indeed thankful.. special thanks goes to my dear hubzter.. also family & friends..

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ramai dah yg tanya mcmmana so far?

tunggu 1 hari dulu baru leh jwb ni.. hehe..
tp mmg laa rs cam cepat jer, eh dah kul 1?

btw, kepada sesapa yg masih tertanya-tanya.. saya dah jadi wahm, working-at-home-mom.. buat freelance jobs.. kepada sesiapa yg berminat, i’m now open for orders.. hehe! and as of tomorrow insyaAllah i’ll be online from 9-5..  but ofcos i need to working or chasing the kids, so i might be slow at replying..

ni pun masih cam masa-takpercaya-mode.. i’ve been longing this for a long time, jadi takuttt! hopefully things will go well..

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skrg masih mengorganize apa2 yg patut.. susun scheduele.. kejap lg the 2 kenit tdo nak re-arrange bilik saya sket,

nak kemas sket my house-office.. ahaha.. takde bilik pun, just one corner dibilik.. gambar2 adalah hanya angan2 ye..

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will be back soon!

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i have mixed feeling at the moment, happy, sad, nervous… as i’m gonna venture into something totally new to me.. as i’m deleting my office emails, reading the old emails, somehow make me reminisce the old days…

ok, i’m off , have a few lunch dates and then gotta do my clearance… heee..

enjoy ur friday!! here’s to share one of the pic i got in an an email from an ex-collegue.. i was deleting my office emails and found this, it brought a smile.. hehe.. hope itll do to you guys too..

HAPPY FRIDAY!!

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apapun, happy wednesday..!!

my days are getting more n more cheerier.. seperti cherrio..

ahahhaa.. okeh saya merepek.. tapi makin pack gak laa, ada beberapa benda dalam checklist yg belum ditanda checkkan dan harus dibuat..

mungkin tak sempat nak buat entry lg minggu ni.. n aku akan kembali minggu depan.. insyaAllah. hopefully lepas ni entry saya akan lebih bermutu n memberangsangkan.. heeee…

ok.. harus berhenti mengarut..

korang baca tak psl budak remaja 15thn kena tembak?

weihs, mmg tak patut laa bg aku.. lain la kalau dia nak serang polis ke, acukan pistol ke polis ke atau nak langgar polis tu, lain sbb atau alasan mmg tak relevan laa bagi aku. lagipun katalaa kalau dia memandu menuju kearah polis pun, polis tu leh tembak tayar kan? ish ish.. tapi aku baca kat berita harian smlm, dlm keratan tu kata dia reverse.. kesian family mangsa, kakak dia masih tak percaya adik dia penjenayah n tak patut dilakukan sebegitu rupa..

aku baca online, ada sesetengah org kata mereka tukar2 cerita n cover up.. apa kes? {mengeluh panjang..}

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ps: xsbr tunggu jumaat.. yipeee! n also jumaat tu ingat nak ajak one tgk ironman!! mesti best kan?

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mr falcon is hunting for ms snake, hehe.. Dia cuti, rs sedikit aman n tenteram.. hooray!
seriyes mls giler nak pi keje pg td… hee, ingatkan dh mei.. belum lagi, erk..
minggu ni minggu handover, belek2 n susun blk folder2 lama, berfarewell n berlunchdate jd haruslah gagahkan diri gak.. over~ i know.. bukan apa, xsbr.. tp takut gak pada yg sama..

rabu mlm lepas, mini-gathering cum farewell dgn ex-staff dept ni kat cineleisure.. thanks guys for the treat! it was fun meeting all of them, after quite sometime.. glad that everybody’s doing well after leaving here..diorg nye comment was yeay.. finally!.. hahaha.. besides updating each other kitorg byk bergossip psl agenda, aktiviti, messed up yg dibuat oleh sang ular… kalau cite psl dia mmg laaa,  grrrrr!! i dont like..

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weekend.. best! nnti saya story.. korang nye camne? jap nnti ptg sikit saya bloghopp..

one nyer eye infection masih tak ok lg.. kesian dia, walaupun dia takde la sakit teruk, tp mata nye sgt merah.. n kitorg risau gak sbb taktau kenapa, n doktor pun xtau.. n bg mc lg sampai rabu.. pg ni dia nak gi dptkan second opinion kat kpj..

bwh ni gambar feveret saya yg terkini.. gambar ni masa kitorg gi pd minggu lepas, boleh nampak kan mata en kerol yg merah itew..

gi shopping malls org semua takut tgk dia, siap ms dia gi workshop cina tu halau dia lg, ‘balik balik’.. ahaha.. cian die.

hopefully u”ll get better soon. *hugs* take care yg… cu later, jgn lupe ambik saya k.. 43!

ps: the 2 pics are taken from flickr and google…

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saya nak update pg td, tp ada ceritera di ofis yg buat penyakit M dtg, n byk berchitchat dikala lapang.. heee.. sgt pekerja contoh kan saya? {sila jgn contohi} beginilah bile dh menunggu saat akhir diofis yg bak kata sorang ofismate saya bak neraka.. dia pun akan tender hari ni, dia sbnarnya nak tender sama hari dgn saya, tapi sbb dia takdpt offer letter lg, dia tak berani, pg td dia dpt call utk ambik offer letter, lunch terus dia zass pegi ambik n terus draft surat cinta n dalam proses nak submit tadi.. tapi saya takdelah rasa mcm neraka, cuma malas je.. heee.

jadinye niat saya nak update psl aktiviti Nadhrah terbantut… Aqilah demam dari jumaat lepas, kesian dia, tp masih aktif… cume mlm je jd lembik sket n merengek2, sbb tatkala mlm panasnye bertmbh.. smlm Aqilah dh ok, tp pg td mcm panas blk, terus bg dia ubat n tuam kepala.. tghhari ni call mak saya dia kata dua2 sihat. saya pun demam jumaat mlm, tdo jap kat rumah makpak saya utk dptkan energy n buang mengantuk, n drive blk.. sabtu kuatkan bdn utk the two sweeties, alhamdulillah ahad dh ok seperti biasa..

terima kasih daun keladi pd semua yg komen, msg, email psl potty train tu.. sgt2 berbesar hati.. *hugs*
insyaAllah akan gunapakai semua tips2 yg diberi..

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mcmmana weekend korang?

ps: saya kembali esok dgn ceritatera2. happy monday lovelies…

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Finally I’ve hand in the letter, surat cinta buat bos yg tercinta (uweek!).. heee…

It took me  a lot of courage to finally make this decision, I’ve stayed on because of a few reasons..

1. Felt guilty and kesian to team members..
2. Skeptical how new workplace would be {if move to a new office..}
3. No time to go for an interview.. {there was a few times where I agreed and set the date for interview, I couldn’t make it due to work that came in last minute}

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There was a few interview that I went to, actually I only managed to go to 2, One I turned them down cos I no longer want to work in advertising company(silly me, for not checking the company first, but love the location) and one that I really positive I will get and kinda like the jobscope and all eventhough it’s a smaller company compared to now, positive remarks and everything else but nop after screening I didn’t get.. Ussually before this, I’ll get jobs that I aimed for, but this time, there’s always the barriers to it.. not that am bragging, jauh dari situ ye, semua tu rezeki dari Allah swt, berkat dari doa ibubapa n suami kot, not really me perse kan..  and I believe others are more lucky than me, I don’t aim really high, just cukup2 makan memadai dgn apa yg I ada kan..

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Then again, freelance job came in, one by one.. as well as other ideas of sourcing out money from other areas.. and a few months back it got me thinking.. was this a sign?

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And after much thinking, and I took the courage to talk to One about it.. i smsed him, saying I want to discuss something with him that nite, I even listed things to present to him, like I always did to my dad.. but to me surprise, just when I started on the topic, haven’t got to the things I listed, he said ok.. the whole night I was still kinda in shock.. never imagined that it was really happening.. am I dreaming?

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After that I continued telling him on my plans yada yada.. he says ok, but I want your full commitment and really serious about this.. this was the reason of this entry.

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and in that same week, something happened that I really thought this is it, so I made another plan, to tender abit earlier which was inititally in july (ending august), to earlier a month jun (ending july).. told one that nite, he said actually the earlier the better, because currently our house loan are paid by epf till sept.. we took out some to release a bit of our burden, of the to-buy-items for 2 kids.. how happy I was with the words that came out from his mouth, was like it was crafted by angels and sounded like singing.. how beautiful.. heee.. {sgt over..  sila muntah}.. tapi begitulah kehappy-an saya yg tak terhingga…

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yeay to freedom..!

and yupp today was the day planned for me to tender..

I plan to be a working at home mom, yupp wahm baby..

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And 2 weeks back I was approached and got an offer, which I hinted here and here, and best of all, to work from home.. the offer came just at the right time, ill share about it once I get started yea..

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Alhamdulillah.. ya Allah ya Tuhanku aku bersyukur atas semua rezeki dan nikmat kurniaanmu..

Million thanks for my family for being my backbone and my lovely friends for the tremendous support.. Love you guys heaps… I’m nothing without all of you..

wish me luck!

ps: ill be back with another entry today yea..

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Ini adalah ceritera antara seorang bigdaddy n seorang ular.. “The never ending drama n queen control”  di kamar p*jab*t.. haish.. dia cuti sakit pada hari ini, fuh, lega satu hari dpt laa  bernafas… sakit apakah? Sakit otakkah? Heee…

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Kenapakah aku menyampah sgt pd mereka? Kerana semua perlakuan, lakonan n cemuhan yg dibuat oleh mereka kepada rakan-rakan kerja lama ku yg aku anggap sangat keji n berbau perkauman.. mmg sgt kurang ajar mulut mereka yg tiada insuran itu.. two-face-&-racist.. operasi mengulingkan semua org lama dilakukan step by step mcm telah diatur semuanya, demi menaikan ular sawa yg tercinta, bertopengkan muka yg mereka anggap sgt goddess dan juga tidak dilupakan badan seksi yg dipertaruhkan.. Hebat? Huh, maap, bg aku tidak sekali..

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Minggu lepas mereka telah merancang satu meeting, yg tetibe mengincludekan kami yg dianggap tidak penting ini, oh ya org lama yg tinggal hanya 3 org shj, eh ke 5? Entahlah yg lg 2 ni aku tak brp nak sure mereka2 sebenar2nye dlm kategori atau jemaah mana.. meeting tu plak tetibe di set hanya diantara staf dgn si-rakan-kongsi (big daddy kami panggil) kekasih kepada kekasih gelap yg adalah ular sawa itu.. ular sawa n nan seorang lagi pengurus tidak perlu turut serta, kononnye kami dpt suarakan terus pendpt n ketidakpuashatian kami kepada big daddy… come to papa.. uwek! Mau muntah aku…

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Sgt pelik bukan?

Kami hidu sesuatu tidak kena..  N tekaan kami tepat, yup, mereka merancang satu lg penggulingan.. akan pengurus yg juga dahulunye merupakan ala-ala rakan sekongkol juge satu ketika dulu sewaktu penyah-org-lama-an dibuat secara beramai-ramai, masuknye pengurus-nan-seorang itu(yg dirancang utk digulingkan kali ini) dgn tidak berpengetahuan n pengalaman apa, mmg lah tidak disukai oleh kami para staf2 bawahan ini, sbbnye dia mmg sentiasa dlm keadaan pening lalat n kelam kabut tidak tahu mcmmana menguruskan kerja nye sendiri lagikan pula nak mengurus kami..

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Aku tak nafikan kami mmg rasa kejenye mmg hampasgas n dia suck sbg pengurus kami, kerana byk sebab, tidak perlulah dielobratekan disini. Tapinye kami tidak mahu menyokong atau membantu operasi-guling mereka yg lebih jauh busuk itu..

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dan operasinye gagal.. Aku kelakar ya amat bile big daddy berwajah kehampaan, mengcover dgn menyorokkan muka &  menyibokkan diri dgn berry nye itu.. konon-konon ralik membaca email sambil menghabiskan hujah n membuat penutup meeting itu…

aiyoh, grandpa, sudah malu ka? Rancangan gagal laa tewww… hahahaha..

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Tolonglah, ko p…..r je wei, tak tinggi mana pun..

u think everybody are so succumb to rank n money? maybe them but not us.. Piramabuk..

all i hear n coming out from ur mouth is just cr*p, cr*ap.. sometimes even ur sentences dont make sense, ada hati kata org brainless, when u urself sometimes show so transparently without having one.. kalau misi & visi dah tak betul n cite pun dah putar alam, akan wujudkah kebijaksanaan dlm pertuturan? lu pikir la sendiri..

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Aku bukannye jenis org yg suke sgt mengata org, tetapi mereka ini mmg sudah tidak boleh nak dipuji lagilah.. mmg aku xnampak baiknye lah.. oklah, mungkin adala kot baik 0.01% yg lainnye sudah busuk tunggu dimakan ulat.

ya Allah sesungguhnye aku sudah penat la berlakon disini.. byk betul pengikut n spy mereka disini jadinye sampaikan kami nak berckp n jadi diri sendiri adalah imposibble..

Hidupku akan menjadi-jadi tanpa k_ _ _! Cepatlah hari itu dtg… amin..

its been a while since i last update kan? rindu korang, rindu bloghopping & baca cite korang.. rindu mengupdate.. eventho ive put to myself to try to update and bloghop everyday but hmmph, its been really difficult really..

works getting a lil bit out of hand lately, in many areas.. i mls nak eloborate more on it, cos its just at time sickening. yup! am definately not really in the happy mode..
there are days that it really does get in to me.. argh! n menjadi sgt tention..
*thanks syg for always listening to my complains..

and finally monday its like my body cudnt take it, i was really tired.. tho that, i still asked my collegue, is there anything she need me to help, ive done all my job.. she said no, its ok.. so i just switch off my pc n went back, just otw to my moms place it was starting to jammed up.. it took me about 40minutes to reach my parents place, walhal, biasanye 10minit pun kekdg dpt..
n i called one, borak2 to release some of my tense, he was also telling me stories, talking to him lightened up a bit of me.. but then i was really tired, my body n mind.. so told me issit ok, if i stayed at my parents place today, just not the day to face the jam back home.. he said.. ok, he understand..
then my kids pun mcm paham, they slept quite early also.. so seeing them sleeping, i also went to bed early.. really early actually.. i dozz off at 9..

next morning wake up, ya Allah.. kepala rasa mcm itu batu sudah duduk.. sakitnye.. migrain attack.. vomitt a few times.. ive been having headache for the past a week plus, mkn panadol hilang la kejap, then it come back in and off.. quickly force myself to go straight to the clinic.. sampai je, alamak tak bukak lagi.. so then i tot, mesti urat i semua pun tegang, so decided to go to nenek urut in kayu ara.. she said urat i kat blkg semua dh gemok2, keras2.. aiyok.. wah sakitnye dia urut tu.. tp lega laa rs ringan sket..

after that, at 830 went straight to clinic, got mc and back home.. to ate the medicine.. n sleep..
nadhrah panjat next to me and joined me.. she’s a bit clingy to me nowadays.. ayat yg slalu dia ckp, “nak mama jerr..” sampai org lain kekdg mls nak layan dia..

ok.. ok..
am trying really hard to be positive.. am hoping for a better day today…
do wish me good luck..

ok, lets start with some better topic rather than work, boooooriiiiiiiiingggggggggg!

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kat hotfm hari ni, topiknye, PERPISAHAN YG MENGEJUTKAN..

ni disebabkan berita kat berita harian kelmarian, yg tunang ni diberitau oleh tunang dia seorg askar yg dia nak putuskan hubungan, dua hari sebelum kenduri kahwinnye, melalui sms je..
ada ke patut? kesiannye dia…

ramai laa yg kongsi mcm2.. kesian kan?

aku still terkejut ngan perpisahan KD & anang.. dh bertahun kawin, putus mcm tu jer kan.. sedih je tgk, n dgr lagu anang tu sayu jer dgr..

satu lg perpisahan, tp yg ni tak mengejutkan.. somehow dihrpkan.. ingat tak post psl my sil? Love at no cost. Dia akhirnya dah putus lg skali ngan ex dia yg monster itu, dia sedar yg monster tu berubah seminggu je dan kembali kepada diri asal..ms dia cite kat aku, psl semua benda yg jd, aku lega sgt.. n dia ckp dia ingat semua yg aku pernah nasihat dulu, masa dia tgh buat keputusan.. alhamdulillah, xsia-sia kan?

alhamdulillah dia dh sedar n nampak semua.. n skrg dia dh ada penganti, n sgt gumbira.. so happy for u dear!

korang ada apa cite tak nak kongsi.?

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ps: haaa, i dah add new chatting app by zopim, so during office hours, usually ill be online yea, feel free to buzz me.. actually mrs imran yg tolong buatkan utk i.. thanks yea darl!

i already got a few interview invitations already, but I turn them down..  2 weeks back, when i was kinda in a down mode, i went to apply jobs without really thinking or checking the company backgrounds n bizness.. yup! stupid.. i know… sorry but i do follow my emotions sometimes.. which in the end i regret…

I want to find a job that is near to my hse, or KL township because One will be shifting back to KLCC soon so we can go to office together.. A job that has company stability and credentials.. I’m afraid of the vss thing (join then get retrenched?how?) .. ofcos as a new joiner, i wont get anything.. kan? And I dont want a job that needs me to stayback often.. hmmph.. yupp, as the last interviewer (refer to this entry) said, choosy… yup, am indeed..

So last 2 weeks, I also applied for this job… at mi.nd{valley}

(spelled as such so that it wont come out in google/yahoo search engine page when ppl are searching bout this company..)

i was so intrigue by this statement in their website…

“Because J-O-B is a dirty word.Work, we believe, needs to be fun, educational and something that makes you excited that you jump out of bed each morning.

Screw the Traditional 9-5 Job. Instead, get paid to Play, Create, Learn and Grow. It’s like Being a Child Again. But with a Salary. Over the last few years mi.nd{valley} has won awards and accolades for creating one of the most unique and desirable work cultures in the world.”

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bunyi mcm sgt best bukan?

And yesterday, i got an email from their Talent Management Coordinator, which is same as HR function i guess.. (mula2 nampak email, ingatkan midvalley, bile plak haku apply kat midvalley ni.. hehehe..) asking me to send them my artworks and give a brief explanation on my knowledge on web..

This job seems very fun with its flexible hours and such… and the opportunity to venture into web.. I would love the opportunity.. but yet am a bit skeptical about the way of work itself as this is kinda new n not many such-organizations in Malaysia.. N i dont really know how the business runs, the money flows n such….

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am seeking help of you guys to check out their website. And leave comments to lend me your 2cents? or if any of you any of u lovelies have experience or knowledge on this kinda company.. thatll be even better..

need ur help.. pls pretty pls..! thanks loads! ur help & opinions will be most valued..

*hugs*

kalau diikutkan aku ni bukanlaa jenis org yg pandai/suke bergossip sgt.. slalu ketinggalan n lmbt sket ngan perkembangan.. mcmmana nak ckp ye, uptodate laa cume bukan diantara golongan yg tahu terawal, slalunye akan tunggu org sampaikan.. yup, i am in my own world sket, especially in the office, slalu mengadap pc jerk.. huhu.. tapi kes ini amat harus di masuk join dlm forum.. (kata pompuan.. takkan lari sifat tu kot..)

ofcos takde laa totally dlm isolation, aku juga berlepak2an n berborak laa,  cume kalau ada keje tu, aku lg suka habiskan keje dulu, sbb aku suke blk keje on time.. n kalau tgh hangat berchatting aku lebih involve di alam maya dari alam nyata (lg2 skrg laaa, tatkala nak bergosip ngan teammate yg duduk sblah pun di oc (office communicator).. dulu pun kekdg laa.. sbb tak semua akan diinvite ke chatting room tu kan..

ok, berblk kpd tajuk..

benda ni dh go on lama dh sbnarnye, dh setahun lebih dh gossip ttg seseorg nih.. dia juga laa org yg ala2 memporak perandakan department kami dulu yg amat best n happening..

dia merupakan kekasih gelap kepada salah seorang big shots la kat sini.. n dia juga sgt hebat apabila beberapa big shots lain juga dlm tangannye.. jd nye kedudukan dia amat kukuh dan tiada siapa berani berkata apa2.. walaupun big2 bos lain dr segala pelusuk division dan department.. hanya mampu melihat sahaja.. sehinggalah skrg dia sudah mempunyai sebuah cubicle sendiri yg hanya boleh didiami oleh para manager dan walaupun baru menaiki tangga assistant manager dia sudah layak duduk disitu, seperti sudah ketahuan dan disusun yg pada sessi kenaikan seterusnye dia akan naik lg.. dan lagi dan lagi… (usaha kan tangga kejayaan..gelak guling2) ..

dan jgn terkejut dia hanya seusia dgn aku.. namun pengaruhnya disini? jgn ckplaa.. ini disebabkan oleh?? nnti korang akan paham..

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Pagi ni terasa amat kelakar n sampai rasa nak kongsi disini..

setibanya aku diofis, seperti kebiasaan haruslah check email kan, utk request2 keje n sebagainye.. n email pertama yg aku dpt adalah dr encik bigboss kepada department kami wishing happy new year n yada2..

aku terus tergelak guling2 (didlm hati sbnarnye… sbbnye ko nak mampus? kang kantoi) apabila..

” Dress code: less skin is better. Please make sure that your skirts goes below the knee and no spaghetti straps please.  Put on a jacket if need to.  Sorry ladies, the men are a very weak bunch and cannot concentrate when they see bare skin. ”

adakah dia mengantoikan diri sendiri dan sang kekasih nye? adoilaaa.. taktahan gelak okeh…

ni aku bagi hint akan kependekkan sang kain si kekasih ini.. kerendahan baju atas pula ditidakperlu laa dihuraikan.. aku akui dia ada hot body.. kat luar nak pakai mcmmana tu tak kisahla..  tp agak2 laa kan, ofis kan, tmpt cari rezeki kot, be proffesional la.. tapi takpelaah, itu cara dia cari makan kan..

biarkan…  janji tak kacau aku sudah.. esok kamu jd partner pun bukannye effect aku pungs kan..

biarkan..

(sila lihat gambar diatas) motif?

skrg aku rasa korang dh faham.. sekian..