Rezeki….

hehehe.. ya Ampun now i feel pretty bad for leaving all questions hanging,

ramai yg cube teka.. ada yg text sms, email, chat n send fb msgs…

thanks pd semua yg concern.. it does feel good ada org yg ambik berat.. again thank u!

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ok, rezeki yg dimaksudkan adalah

1. Anak – yuppp, dah comfirm pregnant 8 week ++..

2. Job – kerja baru..

dua2 rezeki dtg tanpa diminta atau diplan..

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both came knocking when i least expected…

but hence not plannning n what not, am still accepting both with an open heart n mind..

ofcos at first I was pretty worried, cos some jobs doesnt want preggy mother n also if I continue having gastric and heartburn (sickness/alah) its gonna be pretty tough working..

but after much thinking and One’s calmness with the situation, it assure me everything will be fine.. worst case scenario if on comfirmation day, they dont want me because I’m pregnant so be it.. I would just let it go.. altho I think I have so much room to grow here. but anak is just everything.

oh, juge tumpang tersentap baca komen kat entry Munirah walaupun komen tu bukan utk aku but rasa mcm situasi aku pun lebih kurang sama tanpa dirancang.. n about her having triplets? who can plan how many kids we get? apa pun aku rasa betul susah bile time ada ramai anak kecik, tp mcm my parents + mil kata “takpe masih muda n larat nak jaga. Janji bile dh tua, retire dh boleh sitback n relax takyah pikir nak hntr anak skolah la apa laa”. suke baca entry Hidd – Jangan Cakap Lebih ni.. boleh laa ditujukan pd komenter Munirah tu, easier said than done k. rezeki Allah SWT takkan nak tolak? bodoh la kan tolak rezeki yg dtg? dugaan ke apa ke semuanye ada hikmah disebaliknye..

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I actually applied for this vacancy last year during confinement with Aqilah….

and suddenly was called again a month back asking whether am I still interested in the job, and I actually had a long pause so I was asked to think about it. So with One’s advice I just tried my luck in sending my updated cv n other documents requested.. and then two weeks back everything came on so quickly, a few emails sent back n forth, interview from phone with hr and interview-meeting with my now boss, after close to 2 hours of interview she offered me the job. I said I need to think about it first and discuss with husband.

driving back home from the interview, tears actually drop down my cheeks.. happy i guess. atlast some appreciation of my works after so long. but then I was just clueless.. what now?? my dream of being a working at home mom?

then that afternoon I did a lot of thinking while sitting down with my 2 princess.. Nadhrah have so many times said she wants to go to her old taska, play with friends.. pegi skolah.. (her interpretation of pegi skolah is bawak beg dgn buku n stationaries, duduk kat meja tulis & bersama kawan2. )

Aqilah is already 1, she also wants to play with friends n mix around. she likes outdoor activities as well.

N now with coming of the 3rd.. we definately need more money to save for the kids.. education n such.. everything is getting more expensive.. mind you, sending the kids to kindy also need thousand of ringgit.

And when One came back, we discussed somemore and it all became clear to me. I would accept the offer, after all it seems like its a much much greener pasture n the sum offered was also Alhamdulillah…

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I’m in indeed very thankful for both…

though I have different plans ealier.. but i believe that the path that Allah SWT god almighty lay out for us is far far better..

beautifully planned.. kite insan kerdil hanya nampak jln yg singkat..

and much thinking, it is indeed after all my really initial plan… which was to quit my job when my kids starts primary school.. not now.. it might be too early for us. the sudden change of mind in May was becos I can no longer take it there, so so many things that I just couldnt take n inhale anymore.

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so here I am back at an office desk… 8 week++ preggy, can still cover at the moment

(sbb gemok jd org tak heran sgt kenapa buncit.. hehe).

this 2 days sickness (gastrik + heartburn) showing good signs of wearing off.. really do hope it will be over.

Pregnancy hormones and sickness… 

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One has been such a great partner enduring both and help me with so many things during I was pregnant with both Nadhrah and Aqilah, and yess he has started doing the same for a months plus plus now.. I had days of bad stomach ache that I took many naps here n there just to sleep-kill off the pain.. very understanding and helpful hubby indeed, therefore mmg sgt setuju sgt dgn entry Farah.

my latest status updated last thursday in fb still remains, which reads -

“is just thrilled..! Alhamdulillah, syukur padamu yaAllah for the shinny days… Looking forward to the shinier days ahead.. thx hubster @Wan for always being by my side n supporting me thru n thru.. angel of mine, ay heart u”

i especially like this bcos of the date… Nadhrah’s bday.

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ofcos I’m hoping for warm wishes.. no bitter one pls. thank u!

have a nice day lovelies..!