If you could only see ‘you’ through my eyes..

As I was bloghopping, two of this blog make me sayu.. being a mother, u can help but feel so emotional..

as a mother we would give up anything for our children, right? anything and everything.. if we could give the whole world, we would.. ofcos this goes to fathers as well.. just that mothers are more particular on the emotional side… Just unexplainable how much love there is, bak kata eliana tak tercapai akalmu..

1. Remember i wrote an entry about my couz Shila last week?  I just got to know about her blog, and was bzily reading her entries one by one, i shred more tears ((alhamdulillah using desktop not a laptop.. so my face is covered by the screen…) reading her daily notes on the days before loosing her precious baby, Aeisha Zafan, .. i’m very much amazed by her strength…very strong indeed.  you can also read her entries here..
2. Mel’s first entry on her friend Jay’s wife story really cut me deep, the ultimate pengorbanan.. yet Allah yg maha adil telah menjanjikan mati syahid, jadi haruslah rasa happy utk dia & family jugak.. but imagining how the husband and the lil baby must be feeling with the loss is just undescrible..and reading the continuation of it, seeing the sweet lil ones pics touched me again, and in the baby’s eyes i see streghth.. I guess its from the father.. may Allah swt blessed the lil one with streghth and will bring lots of brightness n happiness to the family…

I just lost my words.. sebak!

I now learned that i need to be thankful with what we’re blessed with..

and i became more strongly in believing that family and friends are the biggest assets and gift there is.. not wealth..not rank..not title.. not anything else.. others are just bonuses and pluspoints in life..

On another note, This morning, while having breakfast with my mom, i told her my team leader had resigned last Friday.. She said “Alhamdulillah…

ni my actual feeling when he told me that he resigned:

I actually felt nothing, not happy not sad.. I kinda saw it coming already, his hospitalization leave end of last year, to undergo an operation.. finish up all his leaves.. all like planned already. we had a certain kind of history, not that we dont speak to each other or something (keje kan, haruslah professional), but simple put as he’s not easy to work with, further more to be his assistant.. i admit he’s a nice person afterall, just working, nopp.. he can such an a** at times.. but i’ve learned to accept him the way he is and just not to bothered…so it doesnt matter to me if he’s still here.. he’s the last few bunch of the old ones anways.. and so much better than kekasih gelap itu..

…mama doakan, Allah bagi yang terbaik utk u.. maybe this is..” i terdiam.. dan hanya mampu senyum..

in the car as i was driving to office, i thought to myself, mebbe it is..

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ps: Thanks Ma, thanks for being the greatest mom you always are.. thanks for always keeping me in your doa.. I love you so much…

Flickr: Subramanyam’s Photostream

He also wrote: Mothers love for her child is forever

“A mother’s love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.”

by: Agatha Christie