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Happy 5th bday, my heart & soul…
May 7th
Dear Nadhrah,
I know at this age, everything I do for you seems not enough, you just seem to want more. *ahh, now am scared thinking of going thru the teenage years* I couldn’t understand it at first and somethings find myself getting very angry that you dont appreciate what you already have, seems like “tak bersyukur” to me.
Then i tried reading articles i found from mr google and so they say at your age you want to do things ur way and love to be miss bossy and boss ppl around.
so I try to understand but sometimes I’m so sorry for the things that I say when I get tired of it, for instance like demanding for more when we have already decided to just have kfc for a treat, you can say kfc jer? Nadhrah nak lain… I cut you and say, “Nadhrah mama dgn abah dulu nak makan kfc sebulan sekali pun tak dapat ok, nak mintak pun takut2. tlg belajar berterima kasih sikit”. Maybe to you, I dont always seem to say all the things that you want me to say, but please understand that its not i’m being selfish or dont want to give you everything that you want.. believe me, a mother would do anything for a child but your tok and abah has taught me thats not the way to bring up a child. I answered that way because I felt ashamed (with your abah) because not yet 5, you were already questioning us for not being able to give you more, and he has many time advise me NOT TO, its me that likes to listen n follow what you say. But i know sayang, you didnt mean what you said, you’re just a child you just followed your intuition and i know kids nowadays are very confident in voicing out their opinion, its not that you’re naughty it is good that you’re confident, its not discouraging it but somethings are just meant to be followed and thankful for.
please understand that we want the best for you, and sometimes having the fanciest toy or the best school doesn’t mean the best. which we adults are also sometimes are clueless about.
hmmm…
i know some mommies will keep on saying this and that on what they do for their child, the best this and that, i dont do it not because not that i do nothing for you and your adiks or also not because its wrong, but because your abah has taught me to be “ikhlas” and not “mengungkit”, back then when we were only friends so I dont know want to sound that way.
but today i just to express it all out, not to “mengungkit” but to show you what you’re worth.. the day u were born my(our) life changed drastically 360 degrees turn with no u-turns,
- lets start with labour pain, it was the 24-hour most powerful pain I have endured in 25(then) years of my life.. it was so painful and i shacking to my very core everytime the pain comes and not push because then it will slower you heartbeat and your abah was by my side through this altho he was so sleepy then… but when i heard your cry my pain just seems to go away. i was so relieved that i could held you, our very first princess..
- when i was carrying you in my tummy, i had a horrible boss or bosses should i say, he would ask me to do things that unexpectable because I’m pregnant but I had to take all that because I had you and I couldn’t find any other job also quitting is not possible, as we need more money. and on weekends your abah & me are going to classes so that we can be able to provide even more. yes, i was really tired and carrying you up the 4-floor-stairs isnt a easy peasy job but thanks to you for giving me strength and accomplishing our dreams, without you I wouldnt have make it.
- then when you were born, syukur alhamdulillah the rezeki you brought to us, i got another job, with a much stable company. but that was also only good for several months, it turned sour, you were often sick because you’re in daycare and getting sick quite often, doctor says its normal for kids its a part of growing up and building your antibody but my senior doesnt understand and gave me a hard time, it wasn’t easy for me but I have to choose you because you mean the world to me, and the job even though was a good job, I was ready to let it go if it wasnt meant to be because i feel guilty enough not being able to take care of you myself but we need the money to raise you, so I had to stay on, eventhough i was crying in the office-toilet and no matter how tired I am going through the daily of on the bike, up the lrt and the bus ride. yes sayang, everyday I go through this, even until I was pregnant with Aqilah, I was still happy when I got home to see your smile. Your smile shines away the pain.
- Aqilah brought rezeki to us too, abah got promoted 2 times and syukur alhamdulillah few months after Zharfan was born Abah and Mama also was offered a much better job. Even though I was laid-out when I was heavily pregnant to Zharfan, it was you and Aqilah keeping me strong and make me believe that is a hikmah to it all. and it was the most enjoyable 9 months of my life being able to fulltime take care of the 3 of you day-in day-out, it was really tiring and there are days I got really exausted and crazymad but your sympathy-face never fail to make me cair and I wished I never trait this wonderful moment with any other but for now I have to opt to take the offer because to be able to raise and give to you and your adiks, its a demanding world now, everything is so expensive. and thank you sayang for understanding when I explain it you, i was almost in tears when you ask me “kenapa mama kena kerja balik? taknak jaga nadhrah, aqilah & zharfan ke? nadhrah sayang mama”.
- lets not talk about the hours of waking up through the night, the hours of tidying the house, the hours of washing clothers, dry + fold them, the hours of taking care of the 3 of you when you’re sick, the strength to get up when I’m also sick, the amount emergency leaves I need to take, the countless comas or never-ending and. because by now I think you could see all of this already. which is all because of sayang, we do it because we love you.
Happy 5th Birthday my dear sweetie Nadhrah… I hope you’ll be happy with what we’ve planned for you.
You have me made feel me blessed and proud having you as my first child, you have build so many beautiful characters, caring, helpful, understanding, good listener and entertainer, and many more. and we will continue to give the best we could to u dear darling.
Thank you syg for coming into our lives. Blissfully blessed!
xoxo,
mama..
When Zharfan turns 1..
Mar 7th
am back with the mack.. hehe..
finally I decided to get back to blogging, not really into the blogging world but just to typing ins some nothings that would be good memories years ahead. 
and yeah its been almost a year that I havent been updating,
i guess because it just got hectic and I didn’t had that much hype of wanting to update,
my lil munchkin hero has turned 1 yday.. as much as I’m thrilled about it still cant believe how fast time flies. I managed to update in fb yday on it, friends & relatives send likes n wishes. TQ so much semua! Mucho gracias. I was trying to squeeze in time to update in between the busyness of work yg mmg tak pernah akan abis kan?
I dont know somehow i got that sinar *eceh, mcm apa je..hihi* utk start blk, dari last week dok berfikir whether to continue or not because i got the expiry of .com notification, i was 50% almost confirm that i want to continue yesterday, but when i got a fb notification that there was 3 new likes to the 5577 account, so it seems like its still alive eventho I havent been updating it goes up a bit to 60%.
Then this morning, as we were on the bike to work, nearly reaching midvalley, there was a car by the roadside(the one motorcyclist will be on), and I just took a glance was a few ppl standing n there was one man with helmet lying down and someone was trying to air him or something not so sure, I was shocked n could just say Ya Allah.. could not guess what had happened, hope the man is not seriously injured and is ok now.
I just somehow realized that life is just to short to be sucked into the busyness of it, so thats what really got me back here.. we just have to just do what we want to do kan? and also hoping that maybe one day my kenits will be reading my simple nothings…
here’s the cheecky lil boy that just turned 1.. sedang menyanyi tepuk amai-amai,..
Alhamdulillah for every progress that we manage to see from month to month.
We are so proud of you budak kecik!!
We are so thrilled to have you in our lives.
Hope you’ll grow up to be anak yg soleh dan happy-go-lucky..
Thank you darling for bringing even more joy, laughers and warmth to our days.
cute tak kek ball Zharfan?
Dia sedang tension sbb nak menerkam bola tapi dihalang. hihi..
Tok seperti biasa adalah cameraman, kesian kena berlari nak masuk sekali dalam gambar.
We love u lots Tok!
me & my kenits..
Aqilah, Siti Nur Haliza of the night, Zharfan masih dgn muka tension nya.
Akhirnya.. dapat juga makan…
Alhamdulillah.. Its a blessing knowing that your child are growing healthily, dugaan sakit every now and then tu part of growing up kan? What i mean the serious illness.. Btw, We just finished the marathon of chicken pox last month, started from aqilah, then to me, then zharfan n finally Nadhrah. so hopefully the pox pox pox its gone for good.
Thats all for now. Mr Wednesday pls be kind..!
I sure cant wait for the weekend.. wuuuhuuu!
back @ ONE
Apr 22nd
ni adalah gmbr masa nak mula2 dating, hihi.. tu adalah muke saya malu dipaksa ambik gambar together2.. gedik kan. 11 tahun lepas, oh serius rs tua..
hari ini adalah hari tua en kerol.. huhu.
Selamat menjadi setaun lagi tua syg.. setahun lg nak masuk 3series..
hari ni plan nak klua bersama our laling angels, anak sudah 3series uollss ( sendiri mcm xpercaya)
n mlm nak dating berdua..
oh sudah speechless, oh shud i say typeless?
byk yg nak diucapkan tp biar abg anuar zain laa tlg ye…
hope u’re happy with the life we’re sharing now.. i hope i can continue to give u n our lil ones my very best.. u mean the world to me n hope u’ll enjoy TODAY n everyday we spent together… u r my rockstar! love u bah…
Wordless Wednesday…
Apr 20th
my very first wordless wednesday uolsss..
tgh curi2 ni sebelum my darling babies bgn, Nadhrah sorang je yg tgh jaga, but dia ada managable..
ok here goes, dah dgr bunyi Zharfan ek ek, nak bukak bedung laa tu..
cer teka..cer teka.. apakah yg berlaku..
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Have a splendid Wednesday!! I sure will, enjoying my last hours of pantang… tomorrow i’m freee baybehhh!
happy moments with dearest Tok Abah…
Apr 15th
TGIF….!
Morning Lovelies..
am definately in an extra goodie mood this morning.. hoping for good newws. amin!
after my confinement days next week, my Cik Kenits will definately miss their daily outings with Tok.. mmg sgt rajin bawak diorg klua bermain n berjln. THANK YOU TOK! as Nadhrah always says. smlm siap bawak pegi tgk Golf Tournament kat KLGCC lagi, esok n Sunday akan pergi lagi rasanye..
am sure Tok will feel the same (kerr taknak mengaku..?hihi)
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Here’s some pics taken by my dad, not as clear as his usual shot bcos
this is from his HP’s camera, but still looks good to me.
Ok, jom layan!
moments at the park…
moments at the mall…
JOM SHOPIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNGGGGG!
“Nadhrah… cantik nye ofis syg.. mama nak jugak! home officeee.. i so want!”
Nadhrah: “ok mama, Nadhrah tlg mama berangan tau…”
siap testing lg kannn…..
“comfy much??”
dear IKEA… my daughters can be your model too… hihi..
nice…!
ohhh… this is her favourite.. choosing, arranging n changing clothes.. so Nadhrah.
kenapa senyum mcm tu Nadhrah? hihi.. still cute tho!
Aqilah Aqilah… mama nak gigit pls!
Thank you TOK! We Luv u very much TOK!
my darling babyboo Khairol Jr… part 2.
Apr 13th
Morning korangs…
so much of nak update lg 1-2 days kan?? terus jd 2 minggu. hahahha..
Tgl seminggu utk abis pantang, weeee! awok sukeeeee sgt… hari merdeka hampir menjelang. Mahu pegi jln2, shopping n berjimba! oooh oh. Mahu mahu mahu!! pdhal dari rumah sibok shopping online kannnn..! kihkih..
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Minggu ni dah start mandikan baby sendiri, dgn Zharfan lambat sikit sbb kelam kabut dgn 2 kakaknye.. Nadhrah minggu 2 dh mandikan sendiri, Aqilah pun. Alhamdulillah.. semuanye berjln dgn lancar, tapi masih tak decide lg… samaada nak terus bekerja ke mcmmana.
ada a few lg interview invitations tapi… errmmm.. kepala awok pening! tolong! kalau korang??
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hmmm layan gmbr.. lg besh. moh!
Jeng jeng jeng..
Introducing Khairol Zharfan b. Khairol Ridzuan
my sexy boy under blue light…
Burp.. Kenyang. sweeet dreams!
Kak Long Nadhrah singing baby Zharfan twinkle-twinkle lil star to sleep… Auwww.. such shweet bigsis she is..
Aqilaahh sayang Zharfan….muahhh! tapi kalau tak perasan tu tangan dia laju je nak ketuk.
Feeding her baby Minnie.. Hehe. Ini laa dia kalau anak pompuan kann. 
dua2 pun dah ada anak2… yg belakang tuu lg hebat, sambil berjln lg.. superbz mummy betul. ahakss.
blisss..!
Welcoming babyboo, Khairol Jr…
Mar 30th
Morning sweethearts….
lamaaanyee tak berupdate kan… kasi can k? still adapting to being a mom of 3. hehe..
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Firstly I wanna thank all comments and messages i got from the previous entry, appreciated much… tapi mmg bukan sbb dugaan tu yg i tak update, tak update adalah sbb bz. like mentioned ms tgh sarat preggers tu i byk work from home, jdnye mana nak kejar siapkan keje ofis, keje rumah n jaga cik kenits.
Saya percaya dugaan2 tu semua ada hikmahnye, for instance accident tu sendiri… an eye opener for me. never been an accident kan so at times we take things lightly and for granted. but then again, was another excuse for me to work from home the last 2 weeks and spent more time with my beloved cik kenits…
Oh yea, I had false alarm on 22 Feb, felt like leaking and babyboo was kicking and moving like nobody’s business, couldnt sleep, so I wake One up and we decided to just go to the hosp to check. It was 2.22am then when we got in the car… I updated tweet about it and shared to fb, tq for all the wishes n concern loveliess…!! *hugs*
Then came the day, my last working day was on Monday 28 Feb. Alhamdulillah syukur… everything went very smoothly, the handover of workloads, documentations n all…Had farewell lunch with the dept.. Altho it was short but I enjoyed the time working at HCL AXON and have learned a lot along the way.
before clearing up my desk the last morning..
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I also got the cheque the very same day.. yipeee!
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Nadhrah dah siap nak gi shoppppinnnggg! Peaceee y’all!
Aqilah feeding mr pooh.. the big bump is my tummy. mcm nak meletupp kann?
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On Tuesday - decided to borrow my moms car incase anything, since our car was still not ready.. since I already had a false alarm, I somehow was certain babyboo wants to greet the world early tho the actual EDD is on the 15th March.
Wed till Friday – I took the opportunity to bring cik kenits out for a stroll, mkn2, shopping, bought them gifts and watched a movie. Also had a movie date with One on Wednesday nite, great movie and time together indeed. One was sick on Friday, that morning brought him to the clinic for checkup. Had 3 darlings to take care of, and when One and Aqilah does off to sleep, took Nadhrah for another spin of shopping spree as Jusco near our house had a one day sale. manage to grab more stuffs we wanted to buy.
Saturday – we went out early to sent ani to the Bdr Tasik Selatan bus station, then we went for bfast.. and then back home as One didnt feel so well yet and I started feeling stomach n real bad backache.. stayed home the whole day, backache became worst in the evening. i tot already it was a sign…
and then came Sunday….
backache and stomache continue thru the nite, and i started feeling contractions coming, and i started timing it at 7 as the timespan between each contractions becomes closer, by 8 it was already every 7-10minutes, woke one up and told him bout and said that i want to go for breakfast and continue timing. So we got ready and went for breakfast, by 10 it was already 5minutes apart. then went back home, i wanted to make the final round of kemasing the rumah.. packed all the comforters that I wanted to sent to the dobi and told one to singgah dobi before the hosp, he just follows. boleh kannn? time time to jugak nak hntr, yelaaa nanti my mil and auntie nak dtg visit and tidor rumah kan..
on the way to the hosp, called my mom and mil to inform them, arrived at the hosp around 11, i waited for One to park first before registering because need to look after cik kenits. Registered and the machine was on, yupp contractions was 3-5minutes then… Doctor came and checked, i was already 4cm dilated and had leaking already.. but then when she checked my tummy,
“oh dearr..she said saya rasa kepala baby kat tepi ni, bontot dia yg kat bawah.. yg, awak gi bilik sblah jap, saya nak scan”
luluh hati… rs hampa ms tu, sbb i was ready to deliver normally dah ni…
and when she scanned, yupp comfirmed baby was breech.. head and leg was side of the tummy and the bumbums is at the opening, with my previous scar delivering Nadhrah i couldnt go thru that normally so they immediately get the doctor who was incharge for operation and I had to be prepared immediately and pushed up to the theathre room because any later would cause problem… 12.15 i was pushed up..
I just read messages this morning. sweet sha n fat, thanks dearies for ur doa.
I only get to checked all the pics that One uploaded during the time I was in the hosp when I was back home, told u still adapting. hehe.
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and at 2.22 pm on 6 March, lil Khairol Jr was born. Alhamdulillah, tho i was a bit let down that I couldnt deliver normally, cos notti lil babyboo refuse to stay put in position at the very last minute but as long as he is safely born I am over-joy.
Alhamdulillah.. thank u Allah for all this blessing you have showered us with…
for 3 beatiful darlings, a wonderful Husband who takes good care of me who loves unconditionally and such terrific parents n family who are always there for me..
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ok, will continue on more on the next update, babyboo is already up… tomorrow or friday insyaAllah..
Happy Wednesday all!
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